In 2011, I...

Even though I've had more than my share of bombshells dropped on me throughout 2011, this year definitely still had a shiny silver lining. A bright one! To celebrate the new year & gain closure on the last, I've gathered a little collection of photos taken throughout the past 12 months. Granted, the most important moments in my life usually don't happen in front of a camera (or are too juicy to post on my public blog!) but here are a few memories I did get to capture.
     In 2011, I...

Got all dressed up on prom night & did everything except go to prom.

Held $1,000 in my hands, bitchez.

Wore red lipstick and a flower, just because.

Put together some badass artwork. Wish I made more!

Discovered the value of recycling cans & bottles.

Was a bridesmaid in my aunt's lovely wedding.

Had some lazy days. Had some bad days. Had some days where all I did was the above.

Marked my territory.

Graduated from high school!

Spent the day with two sweet homeless people downtown.

Hungout with many, many friends.

Visited some old ones.

Discovered some new ones.

Shot an airsoft gun for the first time. Might not have been a real one, but boy did feel like a badass!

Took a road trip to Arizona where I had the best & worst time of my life.

Got my heart broken.

Walked barefoot in the rain.

Spent countless days relaxing in the park.

Had some crazy nights.

Went to the OC Fair & befriended all the animals.

Ate yummy food and drank lots of coffee.

Realized how much better I get along with boys.

Took those cheesy Asian photobooth pictures.

Got my first FiloFax as a graduation present.

Wore flowy dresses in the Summer.

Rang in 2012 with some awesome people.

Enjoyed living this lovely life in the LBC!

Can't wait to see what's in store for the new year.

New Years Resolutions!

     Alright, so I caved... I made some New Year's resolutions. As cheesy and short lived as resolutions usually are, just a couple can't hurt. I came into 2012 in a shitty state of mind. Newly single, a bit drunk, in a room full of couples and alone when the clock struck midnight. It was a fun party, but it's hard to enjoy yourself when you know something doesn't feel quite right. New year's eve wasn't the greatest, but I'm feeling much more inspired on the 2nd of January instead. I just came back from a lovely dinner with two great friends & felt like I needed to write something, so here goes nothing... My 2012 resolutions!

     1. Be happy. Whatever I do, wherever I end up at the end of the day. I want to stop dwelling on things that happened years ago and just be happy. You're only 18 once, and I feel like I'm dealing with things most people my age haven't even had nightmares about yet. I want to enjoy my time, and find a way to blossom wherever I go. Might take awhile to figure this one out.
     2. Look like barbie. JUST KIDDING! There's no way in hell I'd ever want to look like Barbie, but I would like to get in shape. Yep, just like everyone else for new years. I'm planning on hitting the gym way more often than usual, which means more than once a year. I've got a free pass to the best gym around, what the heck am I waiting for?
     3. Ace all my classes Spring semester. I skated by on pretty thin ice last semester. I was a straight-A student for about a month, and it all went downhill once the "omgz first year of college" buzz wore off. This coming semester, I'm not gonna let myself slip. I worked my ass off to get into this university, and I'm sure as hell not going to stop now. I will keep up on all my reading, I will ATTEND ALL my classes, I will make time for homework. It's hard, but in a few years life will get easier.
     4. Find my "thing." After wasting countless hours sitting around on park benches and apartment floors, I've somehow lost my spark. I was filling out a job application for Dollar Tree the other day, and it asked for my hobbies and interests. I honestly couldn't think of anything. Not one thing. It made me pretty sad. I used to be a star student, I played tennis, I won medals and awards, I won art contests and read books... Now? I don't have any hobbies. I don't have any interests. All I do is creep around Long Beach doing stupid shit with stupid people. I need to find a passion, something to keep me busy and something to give me a reason to wake up in the morning.
     5. Get my life back. You know those stupid girls who distance themselves from the whole entire world once they get a boyfriend? The ones you used to hangout with every single day, and after they meet prince charming you're lucky to get a phone call or text once in awhile? The ones that would drop you in a second if their man comes a' calling? I'm ashamed to admit that I've become one of those girls. When you make someone your everything, you'll be left with nothing once they walk out the door. Unfortunately, I've learned this the hard way. I miss my old life & my old friends, and I'm determined to get them back ASAP!