My 19th Birthday!

I had a wonderful 19th birthday consisting of relaxing with friends, blowing out the candles with family and having the "happy birthday" song sung to me at the park at night. No raging party or big celebration, but who needs one? I had a lovely birthday with lovely peeps! 

I woke up to this coupon for my hair coloring!

White lace birthday dress <3

My grandma gave me a shiny black jewelry box with red flowers on it. Just my style, it's gorgeous.

Nothing went wrong, 19th birthday was a success!

My Final Days of Eighteen-ness

     As of right now, I've got exactly one week left with my 18 year-old self before Mrs. 19 comes barging through the door. Being 18 has been pretty much insane for me. I feel like I'm living a double life most of the time... School, homework, and my mom on one extreme and EVERYTHING else on another extreme. I wish I could post more stories on here and be honest about everything, but I'm afraid the wrong person will read it and either a) report me to LBPD, b) send me to rehab, or c) tell my mother, which would be the worst possible option out of the three. Maybe one day when I'm 60 I'll reveal some of my teenaged shenanigans to y'all. I've had so many "firsts" these past few years. I've stepped way out of my comfort zone, tried new things, discovered new places and discovered so many things about yours truly. I feel like I grew up, gained a TON of self-confidence, and figured out a lot more about who I am. (Well, as much as you can possibly figure out at this age.) I've transformed from a shy goody-two-shoes kid to a 13 year-old deviant who thinks she knows everything, and somehow ended up an intelligent, outgoing, absolutely stunning woman. Just kidding about that last part ;) But seriously, I've come a long way from home. Now, I could start droning on & on about my academic achievements or my college GPA, but the moments that really highlighted my life so far haven't had a thing to do with school or work. Sometimes the best times are when I'm just laying around an empty motel room by myself, tangled in the sheets. Walking down the riverbed underneath the moon and stars. Sitting on street curbs and smoking cigarettes with you. Breaking into apartment complex swimming pools. Walking through the endless maze of Long Beach streets with the afternoon sun shining through the power lines. Cruising through the chilly night air on my bike. Laughing so hard it turns into an ab workout. Graduation made me happy, college makes me happy, my career will no doubt help to fulfill my life. But the very best moments in life are never planned or scheduled. I'll never forget being a naive, impulsive, fast paced 18 year-old girl & I wouldn't have lived the past year any different. Nineteen, bring it on!

My Very Unrealistic Birthday Wishlist

     Since I'm not getting anything for my birthday this year due to our lack of money (Booooo!) I decided to make an extremely unrealistic birthday wishlist. Maybe one day when I'm a millionare, all these things will be mine. All mine! Muahahaha. By the way, all of you lucky readers have until the 23rd of February to bring me all of these items. Just an FYI. A girl can dream, right?

This badass watch I saw inside Inked Magazine. The teeth move to display the time!

A vintage car. One that still runs.

A lifetime supply of coffee!

THIS CAKE. 

An old school tattoo. Or two. Or three.

This cute little seal keychain. Why, you ask? Because it's secretly a 1,000,000 volt taser. Seriously.

I bought the first Naked Palette literally a week before this one came out. And of course it's way better!

This amazing coffee cup would be nice.

Yummy shoes!

I'd like this cactus couch so I can invite my enemies over to watch some television.

I really really want a Doberman puppy. I grew up with one, and they are the sweetest most gentle animals you could ever encounter. They're friendly, playful, and amazing with children. On the flip side, if anybody fucks with you they're getting their face torn off. It's basically a win-win situation. Go Dobermans! (Oh, and sorry about the boobs. It was the best Doberman picture I could find.)